once more with feeling...

[enthusiastick]

I'm just a touch angsty today. Coming down off the high of my joyful weekend to the mundane concerns of classes and paying bills. And I got a goddamn incomplete on my first German Film paper for failing to make proper reference to the readings. The readings were pretentious and long-winded, so I skimmed them. Now I have to talk to the professor and probably rewrite the thing. Its only three pages, but I spent all afternoon before that feeling listless. I needed good news, and I didn't get it.

Listening to the Buffy Musical (on a whim) certainly hasn't done much to improve my mood. The songs have a very nice way of accentuating my dilemma, which boils down to a case of Senioritis. I have real trouble mustering energy for my coursework anymore, and I am totally unenthused by the prospect of graduating and finding a job. So even the things I do look forward to (which boil down to: gaming, my friends and Sam) are occasionally dampened by a sense of impending doom. An inescapable awareness of the fact that every day that passes is a day closer to the end.

If I were goth-er, I would wonder if this is a fraction of what its like to have a terminal disease. But I'm not. I'm bouncy. I rebound.

Paid the electric bill today, whoopie, we can have lights for another month. Repairs and improvements to the computer continue swimmingly. Today I got iTunes. Damn you, Apple - could you just stop being so damned good at media? Just for a little while? Its hopeless, tho'. If I had the money I'd pick up an iPod and dance for my supper every damn day. Alright, I give up... Apple, you win.

Oh, and I made new LJ avatars. Apparently those of us who don't pay for our livejournals can only have three. Its probably time to retire the picture of me with pink hair, but somehow I'm attached to it. Oh well... I'll wait until I think of a truly worthwhile avatar before I replace it. In the meantime, behold my new Deja Entendu pic.

Comments

[oberndorf.livejournal.com]

The bureaucracy largely depends on the university. NU is a fairly cooperative, student-friendly organization. While you're still chuckling, I'll point out that I had been accepted at Wayne State for almost four months before I was a "student" and eligible to register for classes without a special waiver.

[attackmonkey.livejournal.com]

I'd actually second you on the "cooperative, student-friendly" thing. Although, I came out of a catholic college-prep high school, so my standards may be a little skewed.

-monkey