travel the edge

[enthusiastick]

"For Ever is over and Ever is all,
I pick wild clover and feel very small,
We'll run away now and we'll have us a ball,
If you'll be my lover we'll visit the Fall
And we'll get to the end of What-is"
-- Jamie Peck, Travel the Edge

(How perverse that I am quoting a song by my ex-girlfriend. But it fits somehow and I like it. Screw you, irony happens.)

Well, its over. She came and went. The visit went really really well. The vnv nation show was amazing (obviously, again.) And now I won't see her for two months. I can do two months standing on my head. I still really miss her, tho'. I should have let her steal my shirt like she wanted to. Now I miss her smell.

What a random conglomeration of sentences that only loosely resemble a paragraph.

"And if rain brings winds of change let it rain on us forever
I have no doubt from what I've seen that I HAVE NEVER WANTED MORE"
-- vnv nation, Solitary

I miss Sara, but I'm OK with missing her. I'm content with the whole situation, with the relationship itself... its like this one place in my life that I can point to because it makes a lot of sense and is mostly effortless. And I draw strength from it... it invigorates me, and helps me to affirm myself in my head (a task that is far more necessary than the world likes to pretend it is.)

Of course, two weeks from now I may be bawling like a baby and begging my parents to fly me home to see her.

Only time will tell.

(The current music is a toss-up between Fearless and Standing... I chose one, but in my heart it was a tie.)