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So I've been meaning to get back into the LJ habit. Its on my list of things to do. I need to establish a foothold on reality, so that one days does not simply fade into another. It used to be that I lost whole days that way when I was feeling crappy. Lately I've been losing entire weeks, what feels like the better part of the summer. I haven't felt listless like this since last Winter when I lived with my parents. So clearly this is a bad sign.
And believe it or not making an LJ entry every (week)day is a thing I can do that will help. It means using my brain, however briefly, to put one word in front of another. Its a routine. And much as I might rail against routine, much as I might claim to savor my laziness, I need a modicum of order in my life, however minor. So it was in that spirit that I made an entry on Friday. Just a little bit of what had been rattling around my brain.
Only, upon review, it seems that I overstated the case a bit. I tend to do that when I'm depressed. I said some things that were true. But I said others that were gross exaggerations, my viewpoint blurred by hopelessness that proved momentary. It always does; I'm a hopeful sort, at heart.
I wanted to thank everyone who called me over the weekend. It was, quietly and in an unorganized fashion, an outpouring of support that far exceeded my expectations. And it snowballed into my starting to make actual progress on putting a new Exalted game together. Which is another thing I can do. These things may seem trivial but I hope you can understand they're not. They're things I'm actively doing, for one, and they're things to look forward to for another.
And with enough of them anchoring me, and with friends like these, I might just set this house in order.
And believe it or not making an LJ entry every (week)day is a thing I can do that will help. It means using my brain, however briefly, to put one word in front of another. Its a routine. And much as I might rail against routine, much as I might claim to savor my laziness, I need a modicum of order in my life, however minor. So it was in that spirit that I made an entry on Friday. Just a little bit of what had been rattling around my brain.
Only, upon review, it seems that I overstated the case a bit. I tend to do that when I'm depressed. I said some things that were true. But I said others that were gross exaggerations, my viewpoint blurred by hopelessness that proved momentary. It always does; I'm a hopeful sort, at heart.
I wanted to thank everyone who called me over the weekend. It was, quietly and in an unorganized fashion, an outpouring of support that far exceeded my expectations. And it snowballed into my starting to make actual progress on putting a new Exalted game together. Which is another thing I can do. These things may seem trivial but I hope you can understand they're not. They're things I'm actively doing, for one, and they're things to look forward to for another.
And with enough of them anchoring me, and with friends like these, I might just set this house in order.
