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I stole this from [livejournal.com profile] adampb, who claims to have stolen it from [livejournal.com profile] a_leprechaun.

(1) I am not nearly as eccentric as I'd like to be.
(2) The traditional family motto of the Lowe family (or actually MacLoy clan, which is the landed and therefore historically significant part of my heritage) is "Spero meliora" which translates loosely to "I hope for better things."
(3) There's a little cloth mouse on top of my computer monitor that a friend from high school I no longer keep in touch with gave me. I named him Mattimeo the Monitor Mouse, after a character in one of the less enjoyable Brian Jacques novels.
(4) I have not yet named the car I bought, even though I consider it important to do so. I am vaguely considering Esmerelda or Zelda, although I think maybe it ought to have a distinguished British surname like a butler instead of a girl's name.
(5) I have, however, put my first bumper sticker on the car, of the London Underground symbol. I bought two when I was 18 and in London for the second time, and gave one to my best friend Jon S.
(6) I have a really shoddy long term memory when it comes to the events of my own life, despite being able to remember vast amounts of inane trivia.
(7) An example of this is that a girl I went to grade school with had to re-introduce herself to me when our paths crossed again in high school. This sort of stuff happens to me all the time.
(8) It has recently occurred to me that maybe I have repressed memories, only I don't believe in repressed memories. But it would be some sort of explanation for the phenomenon.
(9) I am troubled by how little I have changed since I was very young.
(10) I am also grateful. Sometimes.
(11) I was a big fan of Dawson's Creek for that first season. The show pretty much earned a lot of undying affection for the last five minutes of the first episode, culminating with the upswelling chords of the Pretenders "I'll Stand By You."
(12) I'm a sucker for a lot of things, but especially cheesy songs, especially Pretenders' singles.
(13) I really like words. I thought I might want to major in linguistics before I actually took courses in the discipline and discovered it sucks. But I love language, I love using it precisely, and I love etymology.
(14) I seem to recall from college psych courses that the final stages of the Oedipal complex involve coming to despise your mother and idolize your father for being able to control her. I'm so there.
(15) I don't really despise my mother, but I do fight with her a lot.
(16) My relationship with my Dad isn't actually all that good. I just think I'm more like him than her, and I respect him a great deal.
(17) Actually my relationship with all my nuclear family members is better than most people I know. My family is sometimes like unto a Hallmark card.
(18) I lead a rich (and disturbingly detailed) fantasy life.
(19) Sometimes I think that I'm less creative than I was when I was in middle and high school, and then other times I just think that I've grown up enough to realize I was never all that creative to begin with.
(20) I still think I could have been a rockstar if I'd gotten started earlier.
(21) There are a handful of lies that I tell people all the time, as if they're true, even the people I'm ostensibly really close to. They're mostly meaningless and small. I think everyone does this, but I could just be trying to assuage my guilt.
(22) I want everyone to like me.
(23) I have assembled an extensive personal religion, a theology founded as much in pop culture scifi stuff as anything "legitimate."
(24) I have considered becoming a Unitarian preacher in order to proselytize said religion.
(25) I can be very condescending sometimes without meaning to, and it really bothers me when I realize it.
(26) I have a very manic personality, so much so that I sometimes can't stay depressed even when I want to. And I know that's a blessing, but I live with it everyday and so sometimes it pisses me off.
(27) I memorize song lyrics and movie quotes with very little effort.
(28) To me the most enjoyable components of a song aside from its melody and structure are its lyrics and its use of the human voice.
(29) For this reason I cannot fathom really enjoying music in a language you don't understand even though a lot of people apparently do it.
(30) I would really love to be fluently multilingual, but I've never done anything about it.
(31) I'm so passive agressive that sometimes I forget that I have the capacity to enact change in anything at all.
(32) I'm frankly terrible at keeping in touch with people when there's any sort of distance barrier involved. But I'm only too happy to use the internet voyeuristically to keep up with the day-to-day details of their life. I read the journals and AIM profiles of people I haven't spoken to in years, some of whom may not even remember me.
(33) Sometimes -- OK, often -- when I come back into contact with these sorts of people I forget to act as though we haven't been in touch during the intervening time. Basically I want to treat the friendship like a static thing instead of like a houseplant that will whither and die without maintenance.
(34) Since I've moved home I've noticed I grind my teeth a lot, and I'm a little worried about that.
(35) I've also grown a beard for the second time in my life, initially out of laziness.
(36) I fantasize that the beard adds to rather than detracting from my appearance.
(37) I'm actually happy with my face. And I really like my eyes. The entire rest of my appearance could stand a thorough overhauling, though.
(38) I really love to swim. When I was younger I would spend entire summer days in the ocean, emerging only long enough to eat.
(39) I also really enjoy driving. Its one of few activities that I appreciate as much alone as with friends. Lately I've done too much driving alone as a result of my job, and its being spoiled for me.
(40) For the most part I'd rather not be alone except for maybe a couple hours out of every day.
(41) Every girl I've ever had a serious relationship with has been Jewish.
(42) My mother has accused me of wishing I was born Jewish or wanting to convert. Honestly Judaism appeals to me more overall than Christianity does. That's probably because of liberal/secular media brainwashing, though.
(43) I think using X-ian to abbreviate Christian is dumb beyond the telling of it.
(44) I'm a tremendously picky eater, and I don't like many vegetables.
(45) I do, however, like broccoli. I wish more vegetables were like it. I could probably eat beef with broccoli from a good Chinese food place every day for the rest of my life.
(46) John Mayer sings this line: "I believe that my life's gonna see the love I give returned to me." I believe that.
(47) I believe all sorts of crazy, ridiculous things (see #23).
(48) [livejournal.com profile] zerbie recently appealed to her mewling fandom for money. I remarked to [livejournal.com profile] pax_malificus several months ago that I kind-of sort-of want a mewling LJ fandom. I now renew that sentiment.
(49) I enjoy using the [lj user="username"] HTML tag more than is healthy.
(50) I've been told that my standards for attractiveness are exceedingly odd.
(51) As far as I'm concerned this is not actually the case. The actual case is that on some level I often equate distinctiveness with appeal. This couples with the fact that my esteem for a person's personality entirely recalibrates my perception of their attractive qualities upwards.
(52) Upon reading what I've just written I am forced to concede that my standards for attractiveness are probably a little bit odd.
(53) I really like the orchestral music in movies, especially scifi and fantasy movies (not because its scifi or fantasy music but because they tend to have better and more sweeping scores.) I own a handful of instrumental movie soundtracks therefore, and if I were rich I'd probably own a lot more.
(54) I really wish I was rich. Like crazy, stupid rich.
(55) My useless superpower is the ability to pick a song lyric for any situation. I do this all the time, often involuntarily.
(56) For the past few years I've devoted a disturbingly large portion of my day to assembling quotes that reflect my mood for my AIM profile and away messages. Often I will get a whole list in my head and then utterly forget about it because I'm not sitting at my computer.
(57) I used to carry a writer's notebook around. I still have a bunch of them from high school, and there's surprisingly quality material peppered through them. I really ought to get back in that habit.
(58) My all-time favorite movie is the Shawshank Redemption. I dunno why they don't make movies like that anymore. And if anyone tries to tell me that the Green Mile was even half as good I will pitch a fit.
(59) I'm a hedonist at heart, but like being eccentric its something I want to be without really going for it. I do everything half-assed.
(60) Although I was aware of the hobby and had played some D&D I didn't really start gaming seriously until high school. This is ironic when you consider that Gaming is now one of the activities by which I define myself as a person.
(61) On that note: [livejournal.com profile] rollick recently suggested to me in an e-mail that she would consider spending more time in the real world and less time gaming to be having her "priorities realigned." That seems so ass-backwards to me I can't even articulate it, and I dread the day when I think so little of my favorite hobby.
(62) I sent an e-mail with Christmas gift suggestions to my older sisters tonight. That's entirely separate from the list I submitted to my mother about a week ago. I do this because all of my family members claim I'm exceptionally difficult to shop for (which I find funny, really, given how much I like stuff.)
(63) I don't mean this arrogantly although it may sound that way, but I worry sometimes that my family doesn't understand me. Or I know that they don't and I worry that they can't.
(64) Ever since my first part-time job having money has caused me to act irrationally. It just burns a hole in my pocket, and I'm prone to ill-considered impulse buys.
(65) I've read two books written by Tim Allen. I even thought the first one, Don't Stand Too Close To A Naked Man, was pretty good.
(66) I'm a big fanboy/spoonie/cult-of-personality type for creators whose work I enjoy. I am far and away worst in this respect about Joss Whedon. If I could switch lives with anyone I would want it to be him.
(67) I say shit like that and then I don't take any active steps towards becoming a TV writer, which is not nearly so difficult a job to get as, say, major league baseball player.
(68) Lately I've been thinking about buying a tablet and starting a webcomic.
(69) I can't really draw.
(70) I've become more emotionally dishonest than I'm comfortable with.
(71) I care way too much what people think of me. The opinion of anyone I like or am impressed by even remotely really affects me.
(72) I also let people in too easily and am too forgiving. Its not because I don't care when people hurt me, its because I'm bad at holding grudges. This may have to do with my lack of a long memory (see #6).
(73) Paradoxically even though I let people in too easily I also keep even the people I'm close to at arm's length, with only one exception I can think of. Its not that I want to keep secrets... I don't really know why I do it.
(74) I am a total spaz. Seriously.
(75) I am also a goofball, and yet I resent it when I am not taken seriously. But I can't help being a goofball, I just get enthusiastic about something and then its out of my hands. But goofy people get angry, too, goddamnit.
(76) I enjoy righteous anger, on those rare occasions when I am given cause to it.
(77) Lately I've started using the phrase "bring the funny" because of Aaron Sorkin and that guy at Websnark.
(78) I am easily amused. I think the world would be a happier place if everyone was. Especially if they were amused by the same stupid things I am.
(79) My former roommate [livejournal.com profile] jrdameonhv was able to reduce me to side-splitting laughter just by saying the word "poop" enough.
(80) He and I also had this bizarre nightly ritual that grew out of one of our first night's sharing a room. We were both up late rambling and trying to remember the lyrics to Kenny Rogers' the Gambler. Josh would say "There'll be time enough for counting..." and then I would complete the thought "... when everyone's dead." We did this in place of saying goodnight.
(81) I enjoy the shit out of being slap-happy when I'm tired.
(82) Counting Crow's frontman Adam Duritz has this line "Its a kid thing, but I sleep better when I'm not alone," from the highly underrated hidden track Kid Things. That's definitely true of me.
(83) I have an overactive imagination. When I was younger I would sometimes lie awake, afraid to sleep in case I had nightmares. I also insisted on sleeping with my bed facing the door and with the door slightly open, despite my mother's worry that this presented a fire hazard.
(84) To this day I don't like horror movies because of this problem. I enjoy being scared as much as the next person, but my mind plays tricks on me for weeks aftewards and I just can't deal.
(85) I use this portal site to facilitate checking all of the web comics I read daily. Life of Riley is still on there even though its been defunct for ages.
(86) I'm a big attention whore, but since I haven't been an actor since high school I don't really have an outlet for that anymore. I think that problem might need addressing.
(87) I really dislike the way my voice sounds, except in my own head.
(88) I got this result from a Quiz once and save the link in my bookmarks, because I think its interesting both in how its right and how its wrong.
(89) Online quizzes also tend to sort me into Hufflepuff over all other Hogwarts houses. I'm pretty comfortable with that.
(90) I'd really like to be a sex god. I'm just sayin'.
(91) I recently got illegal copies of all the episodes of Firefly, and they may be all that stood between me and a crushing depression recently. I think that show is superb. I'm still hoping someone gets me the DVDs for Christmas.
(92) I save random crap in my wallet, including the best fortune cookie I ever got, which reads "Find release from your cares, have a good time."
(93) I also have a free admission ticket to the Gold Club, a "world's class gentleman's club" in Hartford, signed by a girl who happened to work there using the name "Elektra." At the time I was given this coupon I was also told never to use it on penalty of death.
(94) And a $2 bill. "I miss the two. I could break a two." (Mitch Hedburg-ism)
(95) I have just discovered I am also still carrying around a picture of [livejournal.com profile] spreadnparanoia. Huh.
(96) My buddy Horowitz has forged an Affleck-Damon pact with me (also known as a Trey Parker-Matt Stone deal) and seeing as how he, unlike me, actually has creative output I fully expect to be able to make good on it some day.
(97) I still have unresolved crushes on girls I knew in high school. I sort of assume everyone does. Maybe I just have issues with closure.
(98) I have this habit of constructing cubes and other polygons from tape when its laying around (I can be sort of twitchy, you see.) Lately I've taken to doing this with duct tape. There are three out of four pieces of a pretty large cube floating around my desk right now, which is when the roll ran out. I have every intention of finishing it at some point.
(99) If I have to wear a tuxedo, I would rather it have tails. I like coat tails.
(100) I would be really intrigued if anyone else I know completed this meme. Its kind of neat.
(101) Suzanne Vega has this line: "And he said 'I want to live as an honest man, // to get all I deserve, and to give all I can, // and to love a young woman who I don't understand. // Your Highness, your ways are very strange...'" That sounds about right.

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Date: 2004-12-09 08:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pooka-madness.livejournal.com
(7) OK, so maybe that's a bad example. I forget whole portions of my history, though, and sometimes (often, even) the recollections that come when I am prompted to remember said portions are at best extremely hazy.

(14) Its possible (though unlikely) that I made that up.

(21) Go soak your head.

(22) Yeah, me... not so much with the hidden. :-/

(29) Hmm.

(33) There are a very small number of people in my life with whom this has actually turned out to be true and worked. They are my Bros For Life, I guess.

(35) Bah. Maybe. Eventually. Took me long enough to get a new LJ icon as it is.

(43) Yeah!

(59) Being a hedonist at heart is good enough for government work. "Lady in the parlor, whore in the bedroom" as they say.

(61) The horror! The horror!

(69) Hence why I am still thinking about it.

(93) Yup. Elektra is (or was) the stage name of my ocasionally-mentioned friend Jacqui (aka "my friend Jacqui the stripper"). She's one of the people on whom Kit is based, actually. She gave me the coupon as a friendly gesture and then politely explained that she had no desire to ever be seen naked by me (professionally, anyway) through the simple expedient of promising to visit gratuitous and lethal violence on my person should I ever show up at the Club. So I suppose technically I could use it now, except its a memento so I won't.

(100) Do, someday, please.

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